Been a while...

it's been a while. 
indeed it has. 
last i was here the world was in contrived order.
now we are in the nest of chaos. 
i'm getting use to it.
i think.
living in a vortex of pots and pups and looking outside only to see the weather. 
i miss my friends.
i never really saw them much anyway. 
life was too busy. 
now i am busy worrying.
but wait
i have always worried. 
nothing has changed + EVERYTHING has changed.
but that's life.
​we say this isn't what was suppose to happen.
but who are we?
maybe this was the plan?
this ol' planet she knows what she's doing. 
she's been watching and feeling and reeling in all of our mistakes and mistreatments of her. 
pain and suffering is so unfair, we say.
but so is not doing better, i say. 
there is more to this world than just our own.
we want it all to come back.
be the way it once was.
but if I could hold a mirror to the world you would soon see
that will never be.
accept it and you will be free.
the world is still the same.
the trees.
the sky.
the sun and moon.
the water and the fire. 
the animals that roam. 
it's only us who feel entitled to own it all. 
there will always be illness and disease.
poverty and greed. 
joy and sorrow.
and everything in between.
that doesn't mean we can't wake up with grateful hearts. 
sow seeds.
pick up garbage.
bake a pie.
feed a friend.
feed a stranger.
create art.
read a book.
send a letter.
salvage clothing.
salvage furniture.
when something matters make a ruckus. 
disrupt the world by making mischief.
not by buying fancy cars and big houses.
be modest and be kind. 
we are but strangers on this planet let's be better guests and clean up our mess.